Happy Birthday!


Dear Daddy,
Today you would have been 60. What a milestone year and how unfortunate it is that you are not here to celebrate. I still have difficulty grasping that life can end so soon. A few days ago randomly I remembered your hands. I pulled from my memory their exact look, sound, and feel. It’s amazing how holding your hand through memory felt so real. Maybe this was life’s way of telling me you are still right here beside me guiding me and helping me make the best decisions. This year has been pretty rough without you. Lavette’s right this year you would have crowned me your biggest come up yet (lmao) or maybe you would be confused by my “all that schooling, but not a millionaire” status. Despite it all I know you are extremely proud of me. This is a big milestone year for us both with you turning 60 and me 30, so I’ll have to do it big in your honor. But of course I was going to do that anyway.
I miss your laughter and your ability to make us all laugh with you antics. I wonder what philosophies about life you would have to share with me today? I miss your wisdom and candor. I miss your made up songs. I even made one up for you :) I miss your weekly calls and voicemails when I didn’t answer. I wish I had something more profound to say, but more than anything of all I wish I didn’t have to wish.  

Love Always, Pretty Black



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